Fellas, tis post is going to be a burn. It is so tedious to smoothly sail through the seasons without having to come across another ‘wacky trend’.
Anyway *awkward laugh*- So we’re speaking of trends-In US, EU, Middle East or ASIA. Or in the streets of New Delhi? Mind you, I am not the know-it-all, No way you can call me Anna Wintour/ even a devil’s intern, or a sheeny travel influenzaaa/ James May or a fashion institute veteran-dean-turned-design advisor doing projects for big dawgs like Sabya/ Aussies/ NY clients or for a semi govt. association ( they will give you the eye) – ah tough one. But I have seen my share of buffoonery across different networks both commercial and people in my phone book. I’d call these micro trends – a doomsday cult. Do you agree?
I am ready to let go and find strength in one’s personal identity, be it buddha or straight out of Shakespeare’s plays. Trends gives birth to cults, cults gives birth to power – to a minority. Personally, I’d love to start one myself, but given there are no trends to follow. Is it the digitalization or the world altogether trying to entertain because we are all overwhelmed and confused. Trends are such a buzzkill.
Hey, want to dive into some new content this summer? Are you bored of the same boring Netflix, prime, hotstar, LIV streams?
I have curated a few feel-good anime shows to watch which will keep you on the edge with that bag of chips and coke on the side. I promise these are totally worth binge watching in your summer vacation or maybe just after work or hey you know actually you can watch it anytime anywhere to slip into fantasy and ignore the noise. I have personally watched all of them and I am on a quest to discover more.
Never has spring felt so welcoming to me, feels very exclusive this time. As if it sent me a special invitation to be it’s guest this year. Hits me softly like nature has planned all sorts of lavish things to treat her majesty in her precious fragile 20s. Met Gala to my sacré cœur I must say. I won’t forget to start with the most sober dawn to the extravagant glittery evenings celebrated under the influence of the finest wine and charm of the eyes drowned in romance and jolie words asking me to dance with them.
Romance was never the idea, French was just a language.
A spring evening, 2021
But wait, why is the sky turning pale?
It takes a shift in seasons and multiple checks on the hourglass to observe the leaves falling again. But here I am, witnessing that horror early. I have the knowledge and wisdom to accept that Autumn has it’s own beauty and the fallen leaves shall be replaced with new and better ones, but the duration in between is always unpleasant. I see no beauty in the once blooming gardens and pathways. I hear no bees buzzing in my ears. My heart loved to watch the butterflies dance and flowers blossom, my friend, but now it’s horrid in the Autumn.
Why shall we see the dusk, why shall we face the cold. Once when I had the merry sun blinding my eyes by it’s glory, now why must it go. Long have we been waiting for the golden opera of the spring. Enchanting us with it’s lush and sumptuous performance, it comes to an end. Now it shall go, once again, it must go. But only to return.
Alas, for days it is and months to pass by, before you see those evenings, glitter again in my eyes.
Nothing.. absolutely nothing. Black, empty space. Here I am standing in the middle of this black nowhere. Completely lost, confused and blank. I have nothing to say except “I’m fine..” I have nothing to see but life passing by. Nothing to hear but noise.
In the middle of this nothingness I am holding onto a fading glimpse of hope. Reaching out failing to catch up. There is no energy around. There is no enthusiasm acnowledged by my consciousness. There is a sense of respect keeping me away from asking help, to share and communicate. Experience says I’ve never been taught how to. I have always done it all from scratch. Am I self sabotaging? Is this self harm? Still a long way to go, to unfold answers to my misery and confusion. To get direction. Im wandering.. speaking to myself. Solving things, figuring out answers in my head. But who is gonna help me I ask myself. I see no support anywhere. I see no interest anywhere. What am I seeking. Who am I looking for. How am I doing? Am I really well? Or do I need help? What am I saying? What? Excuse me, Do you hear? Did I bother you?
It’s already August 2020 since I last updated my blog and really A LOT has happened.
To begin with I am already in the middle of a pandemic. Covid-19 has been the most challenging yet eye opening experience I’ve had in 22 years of my life.
For updates, I am a graduate now. Finally. Does it feel good? Well kinda..? But to be honest would’ve been better if I had a chance to say bye to college in a more convincing manner.
Also, I went to Kolkata for three months. Another beautiful city and I shall write a blog about it too when I have time in my hands now.
Let’s talk about my quarantine realisations and this pandemic life.
I literally had a phase when I had conspiracy theories running in my head regarding the abnormality of this situation. How worse things could be? On top of that there is recession haunting us graduates with little job opportunities now. Its been three weeks since I graduated Nift and now been looking for work from home opportunities. Being a Product/Lifestyle Accessory designer (almost now) my work has to be practical and I was looking forward to get some practical experience finally after graduation but all my plans have been on hold now. Thanks to the man who ordered bat soup in China.
Monsoon 2020
But in this rainy season there are days with sunshine too.
I have had a change of perspective this year. In respect to myself and my surroundings. Life in general let’s say. And I think its mature enough to say I have had good and bad experiences which pushed me and threw me in my most uncomfortable space to fight and learn. I am so glad for that and when I sum it up now I can finally look at things from a positive outlook. Oh dear nature you are clever.
Well, surprisingly, I have developed an interest towards things I’d always thought didn’t match my vibe. I have started loving colours. Not a big detail but a very thoughtful one and pretty much hints on my entire upgraded self.
I now see myself planning things. As in organising which I never did previously. I can see where I want myself going. I am now looking for things to add to my experiences and knowledge. I am looking forward to go on trips with myself and read more and more literature.
Currently reading A Doll’s House by Henrik Ibsen
*I WILL KEEP THIS VERY BRIEF*
If you ask me then I want to live and breathe life as a fantasy artist. One who has a rose in hand and book in bag (not really but you get it). Yet looking like someone who is into young subcultures. Judge me yes you can because I believe this is exactly what I want when I have now turned 23 last month. This just feels right to me and I know in a few years I’d be wanting something else. Just like living every phase of my life like a different character. Just like in theatre. In a play. So many scenes with so many characters. I believe life is about it. Having variety in everything. A hybrid state of thoughts and affairs of the world. Very adventurous and satisfying to me. Because I refuse a life of certainty. Its very obvious and I don’t feel the adrenaline rush. I look forward to live a life with risks uncertainty and adventure. You know why?
Because that makes my heart beat faster. And that’s how an adventure is.
Unpredictable and Amazing.
Looking forward to upload blogs much often now. Thanks for reading!
I want to take a moment from my thoughts and appreciate nature, oh what beautiful it is when it rains.
Traffic thoughts, everyone looks pissed and in a hurry. I don’t blame them. They seem to have adapted themselves in that way. I being an outsider wonder oh how is everyone running.They are all running to a make a proper living. They are all struggling to get a way out of this traffic. I see them, then I see myself..
Sitting in this cab on my way to this export house I am interning in. Is it the best internship for me? NO. Is it serving me happiness and satisfaction? Not at all, duh, So what am I doing in this cab in middle of this never ending traffic everyday?
Actually my point here is, the destination holds no importance to me. Every morning I think, I think a lot in the way. And I ask myself every time, is this what I want? Am I doing justice to my worth? I sit at my desk daily, make hundreds of designs out of which I was told in the end there’s no design in export houses, in fact, in this country itself. *ouch*
I know right, It sounds like a glass shattering into million pieces (it feels ten times worse in real). I console myself, saying the cliche stuff, life offers so much. This time you did not do your best in living up to your own expectations, you didn’t stood up for yourself in a way you should’ve had. Do it next time.
It’s fine for a second when I think about it. But deep down my subconscious knows, honestly girl WHO ARE YOU FOOLING!?
You know you don’t want any of it but something completely different from what you are supposed to do. And that my friend is my reality.
Anyway, thanks to the traffic..
Also, I am over with my internship. Just posting what I noted down on random mornings. See you.
WOAH! I know right, that was your reaction to the title of this first call-it-an-article blog. Well, you must have got a hint of what this blog is all about. My domain, genzhere (Generation Z here), speaks of itself, reflects my urge to finally put up my perspective of life in a narrative manner before you. LIKE C’MON you know we all wish to speak. I wish to speak, I wish to build this up here than renting a space in my head which we all know is disturbing and doesn’t contributes to a healthy mental health anyway.
Now, with all that said,
Hey! I am Srishti, a Fashion and Lifestyle accessory design student from NIFT. I hope you are doing well, you already seem to be a curious person checking on blogs which is a good approach indeed. Haha! (ignore that)
I will be talking about everything faced by the generation today, it is not easy how we deal through the previous gen and the upcoming gen. We are just stuck in the middle isn’t it? Being a 90’s kid, i am in the middle of the simplicity of the past as well as the high tech world of the future which obviously we are approaching towards. Its about the mentality of our elders then us then the kids today, running differently at this point regarding different approaches to multiple topics.
In all of this chaos, every second student today is dealing with mental health issues. I have been dealing with severe anxiety issues for a year now and I’ll be honest, it SUCKS. I am not in my best self currently and am trying to get better and face it, and I know many of you must be feeling the same storm in your mind. Thoughts which are not vague btw. It’s a long journey and thankfully I could gather the will to start this here.
So, I’ll be posting every topic here in upcoming blog series. Let’s just wait, until I come up with the next.
Thanks for reading. Have a nice day friend! See you.
It is what it is 